What were you thinking, Edgar?

I was getting scared, my palms were sweaty, I was trembling. My life flashed before my eyes. I remembered everything I went through and I couldn't quit now. I've worked too hard. I thought so hard. Harder than I ever have in my life. "How can I get out of here? How?" Then, before I knew it, the walls were so close, I had to jump in the pit. I had no choice. "I'm going to die, I'm going to die", was all I could think. I landed on something soft. I thought I was dead, but I felt around and realized it was a mattress! It was a trick! If you tried to escape, you wouldn't have survived, but if you just accepted the fact you were going to die, you got to live! I was so happy and relieved!